It was a shock to be diagnosed with anorexia at the age of 32. I wasn’t a teenager, I didn’t see myself as skinny, I was still eating.
It seems strange to write a letter to someone or something that isn’t a physical entity, but at the same time couldn’t be more real to me.
I know it is up to me to destroy you. His fight alone would never win this war. But with him I do not face you alone.
For me, letting go of anorexia and choosing recovery was about acknowledging that I had an identity separate from the eating disorder.
I never wanted to play football at school; I never really wanted to take part in anything like that. I did occasionally partake in table tennis.
There are a lot of things that often trigger people recovering from an eating disorder. Here are some of them.
I told my parents and they said they had suspicions but thought they'd know if something was wrong. A lot of people didn't know what to say.
There's no such thing as happiness & an eating disorder co-existing together. There's no such thing as satisfied when it comes to an eating disorder.
5 things never to say to a recovering anorexic. Dr Pooky Knightsmith Hesmondhalgh's post is invaluable for parents, partners, family members &friends.
If this experience has taught me anything, it is that although it is scary to take a leap of faith, to venture into the unknown, it can be so worth it.
Having anorexia is a journey and at every step I’ve taken with this illness, my mother has been there.
What people do not seem to realise is that we do not want this either.