For 18 years, I’ve battled with bulimia, a relentless struggle that has left its mark on my physical and emotional well-being. It’s a journey marked by trauma, grief, and moments of despair, but also by resilience, courage, and the unwavering determination to reclaim my health and happiness.
My journey with bulimia began as a response to the trauma I endured throughout my childhood. The pain and turmoil I experienced were compounded when my father was tragically murdered. In the wake of this devastating loss, I found myself spiralling into a cycle of self-destructive behaviours—one of which was disordered eating.
Bulimia became my coping mechanism, my way of numbing the pain and escaping from reality. The cycle of bingeing and purging seemed to offer temporary relief, but it came at a steep cost. Over the years, it wreaked havoc on my body—damaging my throat, teeth, heart, and leaving me with numerous deficiencies.
Even during the precious time of pregnancy, bulimia continued to exert its hold over me. I struggled immensely, causing health complications that threatened both my well-being and that of my unborn child. It was a wake-up call, a stark reminder of the urgent need for intervention and healing.
Despite the overwhelming challenges, I refused to give up hope. I sought help from eating disorder clinics multiple times, each time with renewed determination to break free from the grip of bulimia. It hasn’t been easy, and there have been setbacks along the way, but I refuse to let this disorder define me.
Today, I am once again undergoing treatment, armed with the knowledge that recovery is possible. I’ve come to realise that healing from bulimia is not a linear journey—it’s a series of small victories and setbacks, moments of strength and vulnerability. But through it all, I hold onto hope, knowing that I am not alone in this fight.
My journey with bulimia has been marked by pain and struggle, but it has also been a journey of growth, resilience, and self-discovery. I share my story not only to raise awareness about the realities of eating disorders but also to offer hope to others who may be fighting similar battles. Recovery is possible, and with the right support and determination, we can reclaim our lives and find freedom from the shadows of our past.
Contributed by Jasmine
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